"Delete me if you don't like it"

After reading this, I realized how many blog posts of the future I have set up... I haven't gone into full detail just for that but yeah, most of these things were things I was planning on posting at some point.

     So on facebook sometimes I put down (but very rarely) if you don't like it delete me. And every time I do a few people do delete me. Normally its a political statement, a religious one, or something along those lines. Now I don't do it for the drama, I do it to sort out potential drama. I could care less if I disagree with someone, in fact I disagree with basically all my friends on lots of things. But some people are so sensitive about these agreements they cause drama about it. So I guess I wanted to vent about that and just say these things.
     I am a fiscal conservative on basically all issues... Though I do think we need to fund education better and mental health facilities. I think our education system is highly flawed and their are too many insane people, depressed people, and just people who do have mental disabilities. As sad as it is we do have to tax it, but on other issues I think we should tax less on.
     I think people get angry too fast and I respect them less for it. Sorry but I do. People get upset over stupid things and its not okay.
     I am Christian and a pretty traditional one at that.
     I hate it when someone confronts me privately about an opinion and act like I am a horrible person just because I am not "liberal" or that I am part of "such a hateful religion" this happens mostly with friends my age in college.
     I don't think people should ever be offended by jokes as long as its a joke. Jokes are harmless and make me laugh. Why be sad over things, I think I should be allowed to laugh at what I want. There are cases when people are making jokes cause they ACTUALLY believe they are better than someone. Now I am not saying that a joke downgrading someone is bad because those are the best kinds. I am saying if someone actually see's himself higher than the other its just rude and not funny.... I see too many comedians who are like that.
     I love Daniel Tosh, South Park, and offensive shows of the like. They make me laugh and no they don't really see themselves higher than who they are making fun of.
     I disrespect people who say they disrespect people who like certain games, shows, etc. I didn't realize I did until recently when the new Grand Theft Auto game came out. Its not a game for me, but if you like it cool. When it did WAY too many people were pissed about how popular it is. Sorry but you upset me.
     People are going to say this entire post makes me a hypocrite, well sorry if you don't understand what I mean by this post then I don't care to hear you say that. I mean I am venting about the things that upset me, and I know I don't think people should easily be angered but if you think I am actually angry and what not then I guess you are just one of those overly sensitive people.
     I have a strong dislike towards drugs and hate it when people judge me for not wanting to try it. "You need to try it once, I'll do it with you and keep you safe." Sorry but I am not going to try marijuana. Caffeine and drinking alcohol every so often is good enough for me and I have other ways of relaxing myself and or stimulating myself. I'm not saying if you do these things I will dislike you I am saying I don't want you to try to peer pressure me into doing it... I am good at not falling into peer pressure and I think that's why I have a lot of friends... I have always been myself rather than follow everyone else.
     I am going to talk about people when they are not around. Everyone does. A lot of the time its more like someone upset me and I need to vent about it. If you don't understand this then I guess in the end I don't really trust you... I don't know how to put it. At the same time as me saying that, I hate it when people "vent" about others a lot. If that's the case then I am guessing there is something you can do about it and at this point its your fault that you haven't yet. In the end no one is perfect and everyone might have an issue with everyone. Heck I even sometimes complain about my BEST FRIENDS and I am sure they do the same towards. me.

Church

       Here's a post that will be a little different than normal. I am going to talk about me being Christian, church, and stuff of the like.
       So I grew up in an Evangelical church. Would I say I am Evangelical now? Well, I don't think I can really say that. I went to an evangelical church from when I was 6 and until I was 17. But I really didn't start to get serious until I was about 15 which is when I started to attend youth group.
       Well I guess I am just going to talk about my testimony and church.
       When I was 15 I started going to youth group with a friend. This friend very much enjoyed going and it was the high light every week. I felt like I got a lot out of the services and had fun with the people there. I really wasn't much like any of the other people there, I guess because I was more innocent and raised in a more conservative manner than a lot of the other casual attendants, but I liked them.
       That summer I became a camp counselor and it was life changing and well at the time I really knew for sure I believed in God... But things got different when I was a senior. I had been a "youth leader" the previous year then just before the senior year (12th grade) my youth pastor left. And I have to say youth group was kind of uncomfortable and awkward to attend to at the church after that, especially being a youth leader too because I had to step up. Well sometime during my senior year the head pastor of the church left as well which caused my entire family to leave looking for a new church.
       I have to tell you church searching is hard, but I started going to one where a lot of my friends went to. It wasn't the same but I still enjoyed it and I actually liked the sunday service's better than my previous church. But after I graduated it gradually got more and more awkward to go to church. I felt bad cause I loved the sermons but a lot my friends left for college and I was either older or younger and sat alone several times which made me feel uncomfortable. Plus transportation was starting to get difficult, so I guess you can say that I stopped going.
       I hopped around with my parents but then I realized, churches are awkward. In some aspects they're almost a joke. Like the people don't realize they're being hypocrits or how they are saying things that hurt people or make them feel incredibly judged. I went to sermons where the pastor would contradict himself with in the sermon. I met Christians who knew nothing about the bible and just based everything they knew with what they're religious leader said.... This is going back in times when everyone was illiterate. Not only that but the church is saying everyone is unique and has special gifts yet I feel like everyone is pressured in the EXACT SAME WAY to act a certain way and then the very second you don't reach what someone was expecting, they give this aura which is just incredibly uncomfortable.
       As I went through college I have to say I have never realized how cold I was towards people. And some Christians don't seem to understand what narrowminded means... They get upset by you for labelling them. But the thing is I know so many Christians who will go up to people and basically bluntly say "you're sinning" which is... super... hurtful to people. Or they say "I am praying for you" in a sense like "I am hoping God will show you the light."
       With that said I decided to take a very long break from church. I am tired of seeing Christians hurting people and not even realize it all while thinking they are "following God" and "Evangelizing."
       You might disagree with me but I think Christians are doing it wrong.... Like do they realize how they say things to people hurts them? Do they realize some of the things they do seem like jokes to others? We're doing these traditions that aren't even in the bible every sunday. One might say "yeah thats because its Sunday and its church" which is like the worse Christian thing to say because they also say "you should act as Christ like as you do on sundays everyday." yet all the silly traditions they do are never mentioned in the bible. Then the second you disagree with them they make it obvious they are going to "pray for you."
       My thing is I am tired of feeling like every little action to being judged and that I have to try and act a certain way all the time just reach ones expectations. I mean as long as you're not messing yours or anothers life in anyway then no one should really place so many people on a high pedestal then throw them off once they are different than what they were hoping. Plus NO ONE IS PERFECT INCLUDING YOU.
       I also want to say that not having gone to church for so long I feel like its more about me and God. More personal. Its not me, God, and everyone in my church anymore which it seems to be a lot of Christians making it. I guess before I was just trying to impress people and also was just getting a lot of my relationship idea's from other people on how to have God in your life. When its my life Gods given to ME!
       In the end I do want to find a church cause I haven't gone in a long time. Plus I was used to a certain kind of church all my life and how I was even a year ago is way different than I am now so I guess I just want to explore whats out there and see who I really am and what God has to say to me in this new area of life. I also want to say I feel more understanding of me and MY relationship with God than ever and having not gone to church for over a year has made me stronger in my faith and less blind about it.
       And to my Christian (or whatever you do/don't believe) I am going to apologize if this offends you. I am not apologizing for myself though because I take full pride in what I believe and I want you to know God is incredibly important to me. I am apologizing you are distracting yourself from God, the being that you say is your everything, to really be upset by something you disagree with. I am sorry you waste your time with these negative thoughts and either hurt or aggression. And if you read it this far and anything you read bothered you I guess you might be someone who I am hoping will read this blog I just want to ask, what is your relationship with God? Was it developed by your friends, church, maybe family?

And on a PS note
I am not saying I disagree with my old churches or parents or anything. I am just pointing out something I feel needs to be addressed in the church... And sorry if I worded this weird or had bad punctuation or something but also sorry if you waste time getting bothered by it.
I also really want you to watch Blue Like Jazz. It may not be the best done movie but it has a good message I think. And I whole heartedly agree with apologizing all these "Christians" have done to this world. They are not the face of Jesus and I hope you don't judge him for them.

Being a Christian

What is being a Christian? I can't really explain it. He is everything. Without him, I have no idea where I'd be. He's there when I'm down. He gives me hope and faith. He's my best friend, but better. He builds me and he helps me. He's the pillar that keeps me from falling. No, he's not this guy who just sends people to inferno. In fact, I see him as the opposite. I feel safe with him, no matter what he'll be there, and he constantly blesses us, and I'll admit I don't always realize it. To be a Christian means to believe Jesus saved us. We should follow him and never turn away. We should obey him, and just know that he's going to take care of us, even if the time is harsh. Being a Christian, we're not the judge. We should be thankful for everything. There's so much more to say too. His love for us is unexplainable.

Now I ask to you, what is being a Christian? If your not "religious," what do you think it is?