Motivation

Everyone has different things they struggle with. As I have been getting older I have really noticed the ones that have affected me the most. Today I can honestly say the one thing that has been the biggest struggle for me would be self-motivation.

I often say one of my strengths is how little care, its also my biggest downfall. I guess I really just don't care about things which is always really nice because without caring I never really let things effect me negatively. But at the same time I do have goals and ambitions which I want to achieve.

The way I often see things is "Well I've gone without it this long I can go a little longer." For me personally seeing a reward at the end does nothing because of this. I'd rather do nothing and be okay without something I already don't have than actually doing it. I have learned though that rewarding myself before hand is better because then I feel obligated to actually get something done to show my appreciation towards something.

In high school I had the worse self motivation problems. Never doing homework and kind of just barely getting by day to day. Being punished never really bothered me because like I said I just don't care. That and being punished from where I was at never would have done much because to me it was like being grounded wasn't much different to how things were already.

Normally the best times for me to get motivation going is when i have something to inspire me... But it kind of has to be a constant inspiration. Like maybe watch or listen to motivational speakers or read encouraging things. The times I had the most motivation was when I had the most things going on in my life, probably because I am most exposed to the encouraging aspects in life.

So I have to ask, what are the biggest personal weaknesses which other people have?

Negatives and Positives Forms of Encouragement

So the other day I got to hang out with my choir friends whom I haven't seen in a while. It was great seeing them all. By the end we started playing Truth... Basically truth or dare but only with out the dare because we're too lazy. We were all mature and trusting enough to feel comfortable to admit to a lot.
It was also nice because we were able to be personal and not have to worry about each other judging each other.
By the end of the time together the few of us who stayed that late (we left at 5:30 in the morning) we started saying the very minor things that annoyed us about each other and also the things we love most about each other. Both of which I felt we were all able to be completely open and honest about. I realized its amazing to have a great fellowship that trusts each other enough to be so truthfully open about things.
The negatives that were said about me I kind of expected and non of them were really that negative, I think because we're all close enough to each other to not really be that bothered by each other. I'd love to share the things that were said but then I'd feel like I am being self centered. And we all agreed NOTHING LEAVES THE ROOM! Though I have a feeling nobody would mind about that part of the night to be said.
But in the end it was a much needed night for all of us. I learned more about myself and had lots of encouragement, which I very much so needed right now.